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Changes are taking place. I don't know that they are what I need or want. If I'm agreeing or just going along, but wherever it takes me, I'll make it through.
Anxiety has a rope around my neck. Some nights go by like they used to, and sometimes I lose hours of sleep or cry myself to sleep. I want to be alone, but I know I couldn't take care of myself. I push everyone around me away because I don't want them to care or to take the time to try to help me.
When I am given comfort, words of encouragement I either cry right there or feel like I should run away because it seems like everyone looks at me and knows my problems. Everyone seems to be on MY side, and that's not fair.
I have a small MP3 player that was given to me. I thought I had lost it months ago, and I was sad because it had all my Blue October on it.
Few weeks ago, it turned up again. Gave me a chance. I started listening to it. Added more music to it from a gifted flash drive. I always went back to Blue October. One day on the drive home, "X Amount of Words" was playing. Unbeknownst to me, there were two tracks in one. I discovered a song I had never heard before called "It's Just Me."
I listened to it and felt my heart rise into my throat. I felt sad but a strange peace. There was some truth in the lyrics. Something I wanted for myself.
I've never been so heartbroken in my life. I wounded myself trying to take it out of my chest, and when I couldn't control myself, I inserted a nail and hammered it through.
But I know I will see you again someday.
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Today, I spent 3 hours rearranging one of the two rooms I live in. I have separate art and computer desks now. I will be getting a pc desktop built hopefully by the next paycheck. I can play games and maybe run Zbrush and other heavy programs. I'll have to go back to CS3 for now since my CS5 is Mac only. I can't afford the subscription right now.
Everyday seems like it starts and ends with a question mark. The answers to the questions are only more questions. Maybe it's like the world has said all along- It's the journey that makes a life, not the result. Yet We all hope to leave an impression on those we leave behind.
-Meagan
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Changes are taking place. I don't know that they are what I need or want. If I'm agreeing or just going along, but wherever it takes me, I'll make it through.
Anxiety has a rope around my neck. Some nights go by like they used to, and sometimes I lose hours of sleep or cry myself to sleep. I want to be alone, but I know I couldn't take care of myself. I push everyone around me away because I don't want them to care or to take the time to try to help me.
When I am given comfort, words of encouragement I either cry right there or feel like I should run away because it seems like everyone looks at me and knows my problems. Everyone seems to be on MY side, and that's not fair.
I have a small MP3 player that was given to me. I thought I had lost it months ago, and I was sad because it had all my Blue October on it.
Few weeks ago, it turned up again. Gave me a chance. I started listening to it. Added more music to it from a gifted flash drive. I always went back to Blue October. One day on the drive home, "X Amount of Words" was playing. Unbeknownst to me, there were two tracks in one. I discovered a song I had never heard before called "It's Just Me."
I listened to it and felt my heart rise into my throat. I felt sad but a strange peace. There was some truth in the lyrics. Something I wanted for myself.
I've never been so heartbroken in my life. I wounded myself trying to take it out of my chest, and when I couldn't control myself, I inserted a nail and hammered it through.
But I know I will see you again someday.
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Today, I spent 3 hours rearranging one of the two rooms I live in. I have separate art and computer desks now. I will be getting a pc desktop built hopefully by the next paycheck. I can play games and maybe run Zbrush and other heavy programs. I'll have to go back to CS3 for now since my CS5 is Mac only. I can't afford the subscription right now.
Everyday seems like it starts and ends with a question mark. The answers to the questions are only more questions. Maybe it's like the world has said all along- It's the journey that makes a life, not the result. Yet We all hope to leave an impression on those we leave behind.
-Meagan
RIP CASPEYPOO
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I hadn't realized that it's been almost 6 months since my last journal.
Yesterday, I celebrated and grieved my last day working in the Paperie at Katy's. A job that almost hit its 2 year mark in early June. There are many fantastic ladies that I will miss working with at the store. I've been told by the owner and manager if I ever wanted to come back, and jokingly if this other job doesn't work out, that I am welcome anytime :P
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I'm sitting here at my art desk with the subtle morning light creeping in through the blinds. I've made myself a PB&J sandwich for breakfast. It's the first PB&J sandwich I've made myself in probably 2 years. Only it's not really a PB&J. It's a PB&P... plum jelly. It was already open, and I'm not that partial to grape to warrant opening a whole jar for the sake of one sandwich.
My mind wandered into the past last night as it usually does when I'm alone or taking my one-hour route home from work at night. I began thinking of the pictures I
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I feel like I can't really do anything except repeat myself and say that I hope things will get better. Depression can feel like a pit that you can't get out of. If changes are happening, then maybe it will get better slowly, but I guess sometimes it might take a big change to get out of it too. I hope that if there's an opportunity for a big change that you need, it'll be able to happen then, even if it's horrible and hard, because recovering and being happy is something you can attain and definitely deserve, Meagan. Thinking of you.